First snow of the year today.  It took me about an hour and a half to get to work — traffic was at a crawl, and sometimes a standstill, but it was nice, in a way.  It was really quiet and I got to listen to Turning Point in full, eat my clementine and watch the snow fall all around my car.  I also passed Funnel and got to wave at him as he was driving back from work, which made me smile.  Quite a difference from how my Monday was – I locked myself out of my car as I was filling up at BP at 7:30am.  I was cold and tired and it was frantic and stressful because my phone, wallet, everything was locked in the car.  I am grateful for the AAA Membership my parents bought me for Christmas last year.

I am realizing I have a lot of things I need to work on – patience, contentment, having a positive outlook, thankfulness.  I get discouraged really easily, and I come home in the evenings with all this dissapointment and baggage and it wears me out.  Shame on me for losing sight of how lucky I am to have a job that helps pay our bills and provides for us.  I am convinced that God will put our talents to use in some way sometime soon, but for now, we need to do the best we can with what we’ve been given.  We’re holding tight.

Lately, I’ve been dreaming (daydreaming) about going back to Europe.  This time for longer, packed lighter and with my husband and our camera.  There are so many things I would be willing to give up if we could do a lot of traveling – a nice car, a bigger house, eating out.  I listened to this one Camera Obscura song a lot a couple of summers ago – it was called, “Lets get out of this Country” and that’s exactly what I am craving – I want to flee America and be an ocean away somewhere.

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