“Float” by Jennifer Davis

Last weekend we were in Indianapolis.

This weekend I am sewing robots and dinosaurs to try and sell at the garage sale next weekend and on etsy.com.

I want to catch up on the “Big Love” episodes I’ve been downloading and clean the apartment and relax and read.

I am looking forward to it. I have been craving some time to be annonymous and quiet. A weekend in, with some good movies. I am reminded of a line from senior year that Funnel and I made up — something about “a machete of reason and hand grenades of solitude.” I will have to look up (I think I wrote it in my journal.)

I got free tickets to the Crew game on Sunday – in the VIP terrace. It has been a couple of years since I have been to a sporting event, and I am looking forward to it. Especially the food. When I was younger we went to a lot of games – The Indians and the Cavs. At Indians games, I’d get those shelled, salted peanuts, and ice cream. At Cavs games it was “Lemon Chill”s. My dad would take me to Cavs games a couple of times a season probably, and he always would buy me a lemon chill and a pin for my Cav’s hat (back when their colors were blue and orange). Things like that mean a lot to little kids.

Lately I have been feeling especially awkward in my role as an adult. I sure mess up a lot, I get stressed out all the time, and occasionally, I do things right. I feel like a little kid learning how to walk or a little bird trying to build up it’s wing strength. And it’s not even stuff that’s very big – just things like opening new bank accounts and insurance and bills and stuff like that. I feel like I can relate to my Grandma June, who is just learning how to pump her own gas after my Grandpa died this summer. To me, and to other people who have pumped gas before, it’s seems almost silly, but silly, small things can be scary at first.

This week has been a week of good deals. Funnel and I made out amazingly at the thrift store with lots of clothing, shoes, and a brand new board game. Yesterday, I purchased two vintage bicycles for $20 each. And today, I saw a leather recliner at Kroger, which is something like $200 after the rebate, but I know we should stop there before it gets out of control.

I am anxious for a lot of things – for cool weather, our vacation, our anniversary, Thanksgiving dinner (random, I know..), a trip to Europe or Japan, a house of our own with a yard and a mailbox and walls we can paint.

but I am happy
and there are a lot of things in my heart
that I wish the whole world could know.

P.S. bathtime for kirpi!:::::

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