Ohio pretty much sucks right now.
It is cold and cold is bad for my already-poor circulation.
My rings are loose on my fingers and
my toes are always numb, even now, when I have been inside a decently warm building for a good four hours.
It might even be as cold as it was when I went to Budapest when I was eighteen.
I’ve always said that Budapest was the coldest I’ve ever been.

Ohio does have nice springs, summers and falls.
Therefore,
I would like to become a “snow-bird.”

Where could our winter home be?
not Myrtle Beach (too commercial)
and not Florida (too many snow-birds there already).
I am thinking Hilton Head Island
or maybe Georgia
or maybe a house-boat.

My mom has a patient who owns a house-boat.
Every summer, he leaves his wife and goes to live in his house-boat, alone, for three months.
Gas is too expensive, he says, so he just leaves it at the dock.

Artist: Rachel Salomon

One thing.  I have been feeling worn out lately.  It’s not a lack-of-sleep-or-good-nutrition-worn-out, but a different sort.  I get worn out observing the way other people interact with the ones I know are most important to them.  I get worn out thinking about jobs and houses and timelines.  I’ve stumbled a lot lately in my convictions, my attitudes and my responsiblities and that sucks.  I’ve been really emotional lately too. (I am thankful for my patient husband.)

Why is it so hard to be a good person sometimes?

Thursday, my dad and I were driving together to Pataskala and we were talking about love, marriage, divorce.  He said this: “A lot of people have a lot of heartache because a lot of other people don’t have hearts.”

We also were talking about all the places we’ve lived over the years.  He said, some people live in the same places their whole life.  I said, Dad, we’re drifters.  That made him smile. 

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