It’s been awhile. Summer is slipping away from us and it’s been a wonderful one. Last summer, I didn’t get out much since Owen was still so little, but this summer has been full of activity and adventure. We’ve explored all of the parks around us, gone many times to the zoo, been swimming, taken walks almost every day and library visits every week. Sometimes I miss having a bitty baby, but I really love having a curious little boy full of wonder and enthusiasm for activity and the outdoors!
Our Owen is such a sweet, darling little boy. He is full of personality, spunk and even a little sass. It’s so much fun to watch him learn and grow. Lately, he dances, stomps, claps, blows kisses, gives high fives, says about five words, runs all over the place, and still loves to snuggle his momma. It is so cliche, but I fall more in love with him all the time.
I’ve photographed seven weddings this season, and I have four more to go – my last one in November. I made the decision this year to only shoot weddings and do away with other kinds of shoots. It’s allowed me to make enough income to spend my days home with Owen – just working a few weekends a year, which is perfect. I am so thankful for a schedule like that that allows me to be so present with my little one. Even with this relatively small amount of weddings (compared to other photographers), I have felt really busy and a bit overwhelmed at times. I really don’t know how photographers who have weddings (sometimes multiples ones!) every single weekend do it and stay fresh and creative. Being a complete romantic, I love photographing weddings, but there is so much pressure and stress that comes along with it – bad lighting, family drama, bridal parties running late, drunk guests hitting on me, rainstorms, unrealistic expectations. With all of that, my anxiety hit it’s worst point ever this summer. I’ve been praying a lot about the direction of my photography business and the possibility of cutting back even more – maybe only doing a few weddings next year. I’m looking forward to this winter as a time to step away, re-evaluate and see what I feel the Lord is calling me to do, especially with our family possibly continuing to grow.
Funnel and I are nearly done with our home study to become a licensed foster family. We are both excited, but it is definitely a different feeling this time around. When we were going through the homestudy process last time, we knew that the end result would be us becoming parents and having a baby. But this time, we really have no idea what the outcome will be. It’s very likely that we’ll have several short or long-term placements before an opportunity comes up for us to adopt again, and that could mean some real heartbreak for our family as we fall in love with these precious little ones and then have to say goodbye as they are returned to their families. But even though we would love to adopt again, that’s not our only reason for becoming foster parents. We have plenty of room in our home and lots of love to share and it will be a privilege to provide stability and love for these kids, if only for a short time. I’m trusting the Lord to guard my heart and give me the strength to do this scary thing. During our last adoption, I clung to the verse that said God can do “immeasurably more than we can ask for or imagine” and that is something I am going to hold tight through whatever we have ahead of us.
I am so excited for this fall – I haven’t made our offical “fall fun list” yet, but I am excited for many things, including the Renaissance Fest, the Pumpkin Show, taking Owen trick-or-treating for the first time (he is going to be an adorable skunk!), celebrating EIGHT years of marriage and TEN years of love with my beloved Funnel, baking lots of yummy apple and pumpkin things (I am baking apple chips this very moment!) and becoming a part of a foster/adoptive group at our new church.
I’m not sure if anyone still reads this blog anymore, but if you do, thank you for visiting and reading about my little family. Have a wonderful week!